Three
months after entering the Bilibid hospital ward, Ben Steele wasn’t
well yet, but at least he was on the mend. The American POW in the
Christmas
was coming, Christmas 1943, his second in Bilibid Prison.
Services were scheduled in the chapel in the compound and the ambulatory planned
to serenade the invalids with carols. Maybe Santa would deliver a Red Cross
treat or two.
For weeks
the doctors had been discharging men from the hospital, sending them to
Sitting
cross-legged on his bunk with a makeshift drawing board in his lap, he usually
attracted an audience. One day a short, gruff Japanese sergeant, a man the
prisoners called Captain Bligh, sat down next to him. For a moment, Ben Steele
worried he’d made trouble for himself.
The
sergeant was pointing to the drawing—a generic sketch of a Japanese guard—and
going on and on, yammering about something. Finally someone summoned an
interpreter. Seemed the artist had misdrawn the guard’s leggings, and the
sergeant was trying to get him to do it right.
His
drawings were getting better, the subject matter more varied—portraits, prison
scenes, landscapes. Meanwhile, some of the officers approached him with a
secret project. The cruelty they’d all suffered was criminal, they said, and no
one was “taking any photographs of this stuff,”
so maybe he should start drawing it, create a record of atrocities for the
reckoning that was sure to follow the war. He’d never thought of art as
documentary, as an accounting. To him a drawing should aim to capture the raw
energy of the world, the mysterious force of life. Like someone looking at a
well-drawn picture of a horse and feeling the animal under him, feeling its
muscles, its natural aversion to having anything on its back. That was the kind
of art he wanted to create.
Still, he
understood. In their secret diaries and reports, a number of American officers
had already started a chronicle of the enemy’s misdeeds. Now, here was a young
artist who could help record that malfeasance, a man who could make his
comrades’ misery come alive.
So with
an eye out for the guards, he started drawing scenes of suffering, scenes he
remembered. He drew men on the long march off
This was
dangerous business, and everyone knew it. As soon as each drawing was finished,
Ben Steele would give it to Father Duffy, who would hide the young artist’s
growing body of work in the false bottom of his Mass kit.
Ben
Steele produced more than fifty such scenes and, from time to time, kept
sketching his West as well. He drew every day, drew his pencils down to the
nub. Rather than sharpen them and waste precious lead, he carefully picked the
wood away from the core until, at the end, he was left holding nothing but a
short rod of lead between his fingertips.
At some
point during all this drawing, he got the idea that “this is what I want to do
when I get home, go to art school.” Art, after all, had saved him, sustained
him. It distracted him from his constant hunger and gave shape to his days. To
almost everyone else in prison, the sameness of the days produced a numbing
apathy. They woke to the bell, stood bango¯, ate lugao, went to
bed. Then they got up and did the same thing all over again, day after leaden
day. Ben Steele got up and started to draw.
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